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Saturday, September 09, 2006

hey there all out there.
i guess i do know what i want.
and that is to do something in life tht nvr seems boring, no matter how many times.
something that keeps my passion for that something growing, every second, every day.
something meaningful.
okay im nt exactly phrasing or presenting my thoughts properly.
im typing whatever that is cmg to my mind at this very moment.
sorry for the confusion, in any case i do contridict myself.
my mind's a whirl.
hmm..
well today i went to work as a talent scout.
in this case.
talent refers to looks.
what can i say.
my oh my. what an experience.
i found out that singaporean women do not give their numbers easily.
i always thought that when they heard that i was from a media company.
they wld slow down.smile back at me.wishing and hoping that they didnt give me that weird glance initially.
but i was wrong!
there were only afew that gave their numbers.
i used to be one of the few. oh how silly i feel.
these days, women are really stepping up their game.
well let me tell you abt how the job went.
it was alright at first.
into the first few minutes, i felt invincible, almost unbeatable.
nothing. nothing cld come in the way between pretty young women and me.
not even the pain i was experiencing caused by my heels.
i deserved it. i really did!
then after a few rejections, i slowed down. i was taking the rejections personally.
i know i shouldnt. i know they werent.
but i saw it as some sort of personal attack.
like what..whats wrong with me? why wont you hear me out. i have smth to say. you have a mouth. why cant you reply me?
its been a long time since i felt rejected and dejected.
also a long time since i felt like i needed to rely on people.
i felt so insistent and irritating.
i wish i cld slap myself there.
then i didnt dare approach anyone anymore. the number of names stayed at 3.
vinsee too.
i think its also we were not convinced ourselves that that was indeed not in at least the slightest form of dishonesty.
so we decided to quit. w/o pay.
experience i guess. but i have to admit. its really good money.
if i was aggressive. i wld have been able to earn at least 40 bucks for 3 hours worth of work.
too bad i wasnt.
but its good i guess. i cant stand facing rejections anyway.
lesson learnt abt such trade though.
so we went to other shops to search for jobs.
and we applied for quite afew.
hopefully we'll get a response.
also also! i saw alot of stuff i like frm forever 21.
but i was pretty broke.
and i told myself not to buy anything.
but i bought a pair of cat earrings because vinsee said they were hot.
and most imptly. they suited me.
and a polka-dotted clip.
hahah..
man i saw alot of people today.
9 different grps of people.
1) becky and crystal
2) inez and friends frm MI
3) nicole and friends
4) amanda choong and friends
5) gough and friend
6) ryu
7) alexei's sister
8) kenneth nah and friend
9) nicolas

i guess im like my dad.
we like to spot.
my dad.such a good hunter.
hunted down my mum.
hopefully i wont have to do that.
im really traditional.
i need a guy to woo me.
not the other way.
its always been this way too. dont see a need for change now.
one more thing,
guys are not programmed to whine!
like hey! im suppose to whine dude.

alright some pictures frm the dinner i had with laura and angela.
yumyum..
stingray..chickin wings..kangkong..egg omelette with oysters..satay..
ps: girls, we should do it sometime again! <3